||[Jun. 17th, 2005|09:20 pm]
P a i g e
| I hate him. I know, I know. Most people don't but I do. I can't--I don't want to believe what he's saying. But. Then why do I think that in the back of my mind he's right? Just a private entry today kids. Seriously, just a big ol' bore. Only not. And why am I getting all worked up over Jay. He couldn't just leave the whole me and spinner deal alone could he? Why am I even considering listening to someone who has hooked up with 99% of the female population at Degrassi.And maybe I'm listening because I know he's right. I'm not right for Spinner am I? I am just a controlling bitch. Do I really carry him around on a leash? Maybe I should just break up with him. I think I might take a little vacation. The clearing of my head might help.
HogartOwnsYou: you fuck with spin's head
HogartOwnsYou: and i don't like that either
xprettyxpaigex: I fuck with Spinners head?
HogartOwnsYou: you like drag him around on a fuckin leash
HogartOwnsYou: so to speak
xprettyxpaigex: I didn't even talk to him after we broke up.
xprettyxpaigex: So, how did I pull him around on a leash?
HogartOwnsYou: why do i have to explain your life story to you?
xprettyxpaigex: I don't pull him around on a leash hun.
xprettyxpaigex: I didn't stop him from hanging out with Heather.
HogartOwnsYou: you didn't give him any grief for it?
HogartOwnsYou: yeah right
xprettyxpaigex: Was I upset? Yeah. I really was.
xprettyxpaigex: But I didn't say anything about it to him because I knew it was his decision.
xprettyxpaigex: I'm sure you're happy that I'm dating him again huh?
HogartOwnsYou: yeah fuckin right
xprettyxpaigex: hint the sarcasm huh?
HogartOwnsYou: ohhhh yeah
HogartOwnsYou: i was so thrilled
HogartOwnsYou: i was gonna take him to meet some real women too
HogartOwnsYou: but no
xprettyxpaigex: He loves me. And you know it Jay.
HogartOwnsYou: i don't
HogartOwnsYou: maybe you're just comfortable to him or something
HogartOwnsYou: or he doesn't think he could do any better
HogartOwnsYou: i dunno
xprettyxpaigex: That's not true.
HogartOwnsYou: how do you know?
xprettyxpaigex: Because I know Spinner.
xprettyxpaigex: You're wrong.
HogartOwnsYou: yeah i do too
HogartOwnsYou: and the spinner i know probably isn't like the one you know
xprettyxpaigex: Oh and what kind of Spinner do you know?
HogartOwnsYou: one that doesn't like controlling bitches, and just like to chill out, have a good time, party
xprettyxpaigex: And he can't do that with me?
HogartOwnsYou: like i said
HogartOwnsYou: one that doesn't like controlling bitches
xprettyxpaigex: I'm not controlling. Nor am I a bitch to him.
HogartOwnsYou: and ive never had sex
xprettyxpaigex: He tells you I'm a controlling bitch?
HogartOwnsYou: he doesn't have to
xprettyxpaigex: Then you don't know.
HogartOwnsYou: well you know what they say, actions speak louder than words babe
xprettyxpaigex: You're not even around us when we are together.
HogartOwnsYou: yeah all 3 years i've never seen you two together
HogartOwnsYou: or however the fuck long its been
xprettyxpaigex: I'm not mean to him.
xprettyxpaigex: When we broke up--yeah I was.
Oh yeah---I did talk to Jay today............